Dreams?

On Facebook, Oprah has been asking about dreams one might have, but may need a little help to fulfill. She's looking to give a "Harpo Hook-up", as she calls it. When I first saw that, it made me pause. "A Harpo Hook-up?! What a fabulous opportunity! Ok, let me tell her my dream. Umm...ok. Let me read what other people wrote. Umm...ok. What is my dream?"

Here's the rant: "What is my dream"?! Oh no! When was it that I stopped dreaming? What happened in my life that doused that eternally optimistic, I can do anything in life I choose to do attitude?

Bills. Bills killed my dreams. Can't chase after your dreams when you're over $100,000 in debt and far from being able to meet your monthly obligations. I've done previous posts on my feelings about money, so I won't delve into it again here.

I do have dreams, I guess. I just squash them before they can blossom. "I'm too broke." "I'm too busy." "I'm too tired." "How could I ever make that happen in my situation." So sad.

So here it is - my list of dreams. Even writing this makes me nervous and I can't really explain why.

1. My biggest dream is to be able to pay ALL of my monthly obligations on time. Not being able to do that is such a stressor. I dream of winning the Megamillions so I can pay off all of my debt. I want to buy a house with a fenced in backyard so that my dog has a place to run unleashed.

2. I want to write a book that gets published by an established publishing house and I want the book to sell well.

3. I want to get married and be a mom.

4. I want to know the history of both branches of my family. My last name is Greek (I think) and my Mom's maiden name is pretty unique too. I've done some research and haven't been able to go back very far. I'd like some help.

5. I want to go to Greece and meet someone with the same last name as me. I think that would be a comical exchange.

6. I want to create a clothing line for dog walkers. See yesterday's post for more explanation.

7. I want to sing the national anthem at a ball game.

8. I'd like to be the driving force behind remaking the movie "The Wiz". A friend of mine and I have been talking about this for years! Would love to see it come to fruition.

9. I want to voice a Disney character.

10. I want to start a law firm that caters to people who fall between the cracks - those that make too much to qualify for the services of the Public Defender/Legal Aid, but not enough to hire a private attorney. My firm would focus on helping people maneuver systems , i.e. criminal justice, special education, Medicare & Medicaid, Social Security, etc. My firm would charge for complex services on a sliding scale and would give free services once a week.

That's it. It's out in the universe now. Let's see what happens.